4 down. 2 more to go.

Thursday, 9 July 2009 in daily shit, npcc, school, some comments

No. 2 + 1 more.

While everyone celebrates tomorrow for the end of common tests, I still have got another one coming up on Monday. Blah. Stupid elective that I don’t understand much things about. Shall see barh.

Was reading my blog posts that I had blogged for the past few months. My posts had been getting more nasty than the previous one. The tone is so hostile. And a bit of disappointment?

Don’t know leh. But I feel really really tired. Tired of training and planning back in the Unit. Tired of school and lessons and tests and exams. Tired of games that I usually play. Tired of the life at home where my mom will just keep nagging and nagging at my brothers for not staying at home to study, by far I believe the nagging is still not working and she doesn’t change nor my brothers realise how deepshit they are in. Just one word, “tired”.

Really happy lorh, when I finally announced to the whole world that I’m going to leave the Unit already. Abdullah was still saying that I am not ready to let go yet. But I believe I am. I am able to play taichi when questions come in. I am able to shoot blardy stupid dumbo questions down when HE asked me over email, and not getting any angry out of it.

Finally, it’s a let off, from my shoulders. Really.

Now back to school, I’m also tired. Do not have the drive to continue liao. Think I have worned out after 2 years odd of striving on non-stop. I was still saying in Facebook that I cannot give up because of what I told Liling.

Me: Wah lao eh, I want to quit school sia. Rather go NS larh. SO TIRING.

Liling: Eh, don’t larh. Few more weeks and you are done. I also had the same feeling last year. Tahan more then will be attachment liao.

Me: Freaking sian leh. Gahhh… Totally no drive lorh. I told my dad that I want to quit school, he scold me sia. (laughs)

Liling: Of course larh. Waste all the time and money. You better don’t drop out man, I tell you. Only I quit then you quit.

Me: Aiyarh, sian larh. Die also need to carry on. 2 more months. Argh.

That was what we talked about. Hahas. Some time later, Liling came to me and told me she don’t want to study anymore. I told her what she told me. “Only I quit then you quit.”

So now because of this thing, it kind of drive me on little by little. At least, must pass this semester.
Don’t know. Maybe it’s because of the unsuccessful application of HOME Award that I became like that. Blah.

I’m feeling tired liao. Tomorrow still got 2 papers. Blah.

signing off at 1401 hrs